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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
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emo-moness. non-existantness.
i was suppose to blog about the student council voting in this post.. but now, i just don't have to f-ing mood to blog about it.. all i can say that, i did not regret going for the voting eventhough i said i would not vote. Karleng.. you seriously ROCK!!! i guess it can be pretty sickening reading about my rants... then again.. did i ask you to read my posts? you came with your freewill and no obligatory to read my complains and whinning. and once again, i'm emo-mo... it's been quite a long time since i felt this way, and before you think that it's my monthly emo-moness.. you are wrong. let me ask you a few questions. Am i non-existant? Am i hypersensitive? Am i too demanding? Do i ask to much in a friendship? then again. maybe i am just not beautiful enough to be your friend. I feel that the world seems to be ditching me. why do i even bother writing a blog? nobody really reads it anyway. i understand the world dosen't revolve around me. but all i ask is for you to have the decentcy to tell me about your whereabouts. don't let me find out myself, I.DON'T.LIKE.IT. I thought you were my friends. yet, you treat me like a rebound pad; like a piece of rag; you use whenever you need me and ditch me whenever you don't need me. I.AM.HUMAN. you know? I.HAVE.FEELINGS.TOO. if i were to do that to you, how would you feel? you tell me. i'm really tired. really, really tired. tired of feeling this way; tired of the way you treat me; tired of putting up with all these. Am i non-existant? you didn't aknowledge me. why do you play these games? why do you aknowledge me today but not tomorrow? do you know it is hurtful? it is already hard enough as it is, please don't make it any harder. i.love.u. but, i can never have you. so, i will bury my feelings, hoping it will die. and soon i'll learn that it's my turn, to go back to God, change will come, one by one, it will start by you. time will pass, you will last, we live life all too fast, so slow the pace and lift up your face and heaven would remind you. we love and we cry and we live our lifes, and heaven realise, we think we know, but take a look around, life around us dies, don't let it die. can't let it die please don't let it die. Labels: emomoness, nonexistantness. |
THE girl
 its me I dreamed a dream in time gone by. When hope was high and life worth living. I dreamed that love would never die. I dreamed that God would be forgiving. Then I was young and unafraid. And dreams were made and used and wasted. There was no ransom to be paid. No song unsung, no wine untasted. byes(:
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