I had always liked this song and felt some attachment towards it. This song really describes me, last year.

Last year, was a year of discovery, a year of change and a year of maturing. Some people say I have changed, others say otherwise. I say, I have changed very little, probably so minute that it doesn't show. I have learned a lot last year. I have learned to see people in different perspective and learned to judge myself. Lessons thought to me by life and the experience gain and engraved in me will not be lost (hopefully).

I have made plenty of mistakes last year. However, mistakes don’t mean failure. It will only fail when you fail to realize it and blame someone else for it. Growing up is all about making mistakes and learning from it. After all, self realization is the most valuable lesson one can ever learn in their life. Besides, reality makes life more interesting, doesn't it? It is only sad when you make it sad.

I want to look forward to a year (and hopefully the years to come) with less "If only I....” And move on from the mistakes I made. Clinging on to the mistakes we make will only make us bitterer. Learn to let go.

Last year, I have learned that being together doesn't mean being together. Sometimes, being a part means being apart. Friendship come and goes, even the tightest among all bond will break. As the saying goes, "distance makes the heart grow fonder". A strong friendship will stand the test of time. It doesn't need any meeting up every time I go back to re-solidify the relationship. (Please, grow up. you know who you are. Just because I make time for someone else doesn't mean You matter any less to me.)

I want to look forward to a year with less drama and more serenity; a year of peace and calmness for my finals.

Last year, I saw failed relationships and new relationships. 365 days of being single made me understand value my single hood more. Some people may rush into a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. Some just want the companionship for the fear of being alone. I want to be in a relationship because of the other half. However, to love someone and to put my heart and soul in a bond with someone else, I must learn to love myself first.

I want to look forward to a year of soul-searching and understanding myself. Putting myself before others and loving myself, knowing that I am WORTH IT.

Last year, I understood that sometimes being incomplete is often as good as being complete. Even the most perfect person in this world is incomplete (at least that is what I like to think). Life moves in a circle. If the journey takes an unexpected pit stop, it doesn't mean it is a dead end. Someone will come along to lift you and offer you a helping hand to continue that journey. It may just be the signal in life to slow things down. We often search for the perfection in life, but at times, being imperfect is perfect. It gives us the spice and colour in life, uniqueness.

I want to look forward to a year of "uniqueness". Take a pit stop and smell the flowers along the way. If life throws you lemons, you make lemonade.

Last year, I realized that I did not open my eyes wide enough to see and experience the world that is surrounding me. I was so engross to fix everything that I thought was wrong with me and scrutinizing everything about me that I failed to realize the person I am and the people around me. The people that surround me are great people. They are a group of diverse people and to some may be slightly eccentric, but ultimately fantastic. I love them plenty.

I want to look forward to a year of spending quality time with them and creating memories that I can carry throughout my lifetime. I want to open my eyes and experience whatever life throws at me with the people I care and love.

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I just realized that I was actually making a New Year resolution (without intending so, and being extremely late in writing one). Anyway, I know I hardly keep any of my resolutions, but this time I will TRY. I don't think what I wrote above was any super-duper-umber hard to keep, so I will TRY.

I failed to add that, I want to look forward to a healthy year for all. According to nenek, she said that half the time she meets me; I'm either down with a flu or sore throat or with some allergy reaction. So, I sincerely hope that I have a healthy year ahead and it's going to start with having a healthy lifestyle. Eat more fruits and veggie and drinking more water. That goes for the people around me too.

Oh, and I'm super late for the update on my Christmas celebration with friends. Anyway, that will be up soon (I hope). Exams are coming... so there may be some back log.

Labels: New Year, reflections, resolutions '08